Sometimes
in the course of certain careers, there’s a point where you’re no longer doing
the thing you do, you’re directing other people to do it, instead.
Athletes
stop kicking the ball around or tip-toeing along the balance beam themselves,
and start coaching younger gymnasts and players. Actors step behind the camera
instead of in front of it. Teachers move out of the classroom and into the
principal’s office or curriculum development. Entry level employees become team
leaders. Waiters become maitre d’s.
My
daughter’s riding coach has been beaten up enough by horse falls over the years
that he limits the time he actually spends in the saddle – he coaches and
trains horses and riders to an impressive standard, but no longer competes
himself. My husband, too, has cut down on the history he researches and writes,
and has started directing and guiding the research and writing done by others.
Now, I’ve
made the same leap. The final story in my five-book River Bend series, “Long
Walk Home”, comes out in the Montana Born Books imprint next month, and I’ve
gone over to the editing side of the desk instead. I’m guiding the development
of several series, providing a sounding board for writers working through their
ideas, going over manuscripts with a diligent and critical eye, and giving
input into cover design, back cover copy and promotion strategies. I’m loving
it so far, partly because the Montana Born authors I’m working with are so
talented and professional.
If you’re a
fan of contemporary romance and you haven’t yet liked Montana Born Books, Tule
Holiday and Tule Publishing on Facebook, or haven’t read any of the books,
please do! With best-selling and award-winning authors like Jane Porter, C. J.
Carmichael, Megan Crane, Sarah Mayberry, Kelly Hunter, Rachael Johns, Melissa
McClone, Anne McAllister and many more in the line-up, you won’t be sorry. I
get to read their work every day now, and it is such a treat.
Okay, back
to the topic!
It seems
like such a common progression – going from doing to directing –
that I’m interested in why it happens. Sometimes it’s about seniority. In
government and corporations, there’s usually more prestige, experience or skill
(and a higher paycheck) in directing than doing. But then I look
at my daughter’s riding coach, with his fused vertebrae and weekly physical
therapy sessions, and realize that there’s another reason, too – sometimes, doing
can break you.
With
athletes, it’s obvious. As they begin to age, their bodies will no longer do
what they once did so easily and fluidly. In high-risk sports like downhill ski
racing or rodeo, their courage can fail even more than their ligaments and
bones. But you can break in other ways, too. Teaching in a classroom full of
noisy, exuberant kids can take a massive amount of courage, patience, optimism
and belief, and sometimes those qualities wear thin. Air-traffic controllers
need nerves of steel, and they can eventually wear out.
Even
writers can break. I think I broke. I think a lot of people can break, in one
way or another, after making a big commitment to a challenging profession for a
long time.
And what
I’m coming to realize is that breaking doesn’t have to be a bad thing.
Sometimes you have to break something, or break yourself, in order to find the
right fresh start. Sometimes, that moment when you finally realize, “I think
something is broken in my life and I need to fix it,” is the best moment you’ve
had in a long time – maybe the best and most important moment you’ll ever have
- whether the broken thing is your career or your body or your spirit or your
heart.
So if
that’s you, right now, then take courage from all those athletes and others
who’ve gotten broken and put themselves back together. Because in the long run,
it feels good. Did I mention that I’m loving my new job editing for Montana
Born?
5 comments:
I've had times when I felt broken, so to speak. It gave me the opportunity to go in a different direction. Silver lining.
So interesting to read of your new direction, Lilian - it sounds like a wonderful change for you!
That's exactly how I feel about it, Mary!
I'm feeling much more relaxed about life so far, Kandy, and hope that continues.
nice reflection
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