Because January is a time of resolution and guilt or at least it is for me. I always start with good intentions. In fact you could say as my great grandmother did if the road to hell is paved with good intentions, I am the contractor in chief. But two weeks into 2011 and I can already see things starting to slide. It is easier to fall back into old habits. The shiny new resolutions go on the backburner because life throws up distractions.
Change is hard. There is no doubt about it. It takes dedication, desire, determination, discipline and a lot of persistence to change. I know this to be true because for many years, I kept saying – I am going to write a book. Somehow, something else would always get in the way.
At the end of 2002, I decided to do something about it. It took until 2005 and seven full length manuscripts until I sold to Harlequin Mills & Boon. It is why when unpublished authors speak to me about their dreams, I listen and know that the dreams can become reality if people are serious about working at it. Yes some of it is luck but you do make your own luck and sometimes dreams change or alter.
It took getting seriously ill to make me focus and decide to follow my dream, even though it had long been a resolution of mine. And there are times when it remains a struggle to focus. You would think habits like being disciplined and writing the pages first would become ingrained in the psyche but they don’t. I always struggle and have to work at it. But it is worth at the end when I do hold another of my dreams in my hands or when I hear from a reader that they enjoyed a story of mine. Remembering the joy helps when it gets tough.
So whatever your resolutions or whatever change you wanted to make in your life, know that if it is truly worth it, it will take longer than 2 weeks to achieve. And even if you do fall back, you can always try again. Each day is a chance to start anew and to make things happen. Sometimes it is helpful to look and see how far you have come. Or as Thomas Edison once put it, he had to find 10,000 ways how not to make a light bulb before he found the one way that he could.
So to all of those who are struggling with their resolutions, I am struggling as well. But this year, I am determined to do better. Discipline, determination,dedication, desire and perservance are the key but oh how I wish it was easier. Does anyone else struggle?